The other day I was reading Philip Wang's blog about relationships, where he talks about starting out as strangers, progress to be each others' "unicorn," and unfortunately become strangers again. This is not to say that all relationships are like this, the successful ones go on for something more, something like marriage. But it got me thinking about all relationships. I applaud all of the people who make it to Fork 1.

It's been a rough beginning for me. All my unicorns have become regular horses and it just makes me wonder what went wrong. I know it's useless to dwell on the past but memories are all we have of happier times. The terrible thing for me is that small things that had no meaning now have significant meaning and trigger those happier times, but they just make me unhappy thinking about them.

The other tragic part of this is that it seems I'm stuck between step 10 and step 11, more to 10. I want to be able to call and just talk to them because those were the special moments for me. I mean the cuddling and all that jazz were a definite plus, but the talking was the highlight of my day. It was good to know that your unicorn would be there every night to call/text/im you. I know friends are there too, but they just don't fill that void in your heart.



So after all of this and my last mirage of a unicorn, I'm becoming more cautious about finding my true unicorn.

But on a brighter note, I gained a lot after the loss of my last unicorn. I got $300 from 3 aunts, 5 shares of Disney (~$154), $25 iTunes gift card, and a MacBook and $100 from Power106; total gained: ~$1579. So I hope summer will begin to be the awesome summer like in those movies.

I'm so tired dear. You said that things wouldn't change. But I guess you don't notice that I've been upset with what we have become. We used to be able to talk for hours, but now it just seems like you don't have time for me. I don't know why you are doing this. I am the same person that you met when you met me. I havn't changed one bit. We used to tell each other everything. But I don't even know what's going on in your life these days. I feel so out of the loop with you. It feels like we are on different roads. How did we get here? I like walking with you. Being able to be there for each other is all I ask, yet we have strayed from that. I just hope that there's something good for you at the end of your road. I hope that our roads will one day meet again. That's the day I will be happy again.

2007 January 03 was a wondrous day. So much planning had gone into it but unexpected things occurred.

I was already planning to go down to San Diego for Marvin's birthday, just to surprise him. He told me that he didn't have anything planned for his birthday so I wanted to do something for him. I was going to facebook his close friends and ask for their help. I talked to Ivan about it and it turns out that Tina was planning a surprise birthday party. So Ivan introduced me to Tina and we started planning. This was Tuesday. Such short notice.

But our plan goes:
I arrive at Tina's house at 10AM to make water balloons.
Go pick up Marvin at 2PM.
(I remain silent for the whole time and surprise him at the park)
Go to WOW to take sticker pictures with Marvin's blindfold still on.
Go to the park.
Unblindfold Marvin.
Attack Marvin with whipped cream, silly string, and water balloons.


Woke up on Thursday around 7 AM to get ready to go to SD. I lagged a little and really woke up around 7:30 AM. I was looking for directions to all over the place in SD at 8 AM, which was supposed to be when I scheduled to leave the house. I looked for directions from home to Ivan, Ivan to Tina, Tina to Marvin, Marvin to WoW, Wow to Tina, and Tina to back home. Sick printed out like 10 pages. Head out the house at 8:30 AM. The freeway was a killer. I got stuck in traffic for maybe 30 minutes a few minutes after I got onto the freeway. But after that it was pretty smooth. I almost died though. I was distracted by the shoreline. I just had to take a few pictures as I was driving... But I got Ivan's house safely. Then we went to Tina's to make water ballons. Ivan was no help at all as predicted by everyone, but he did take pictures. I played with the other Tina's guitar, but I sucked seeing as I haven't touched a guitar since the summer before high school. Tina showed my Marvin's cake. They were really awesome. One of them said "GAYFER" on it.

We all headed out to Tapioca Heaven around 2 PM to meet with Marvin's friends. I got a Mango Shaved Ice. It was freaking heavenly. Do you like my pun?? Anywho. Tina was rushing me so I had to finish up super fast. My tongue got numb and I had a lisp. rawr. So Ivan and I went to pick up Marvin. Lena and Jessica had already blindfolded him and was walking him around nowhere. I finished writing his card while I waited for them to come back. We picked him up and took him to WoW to take sticker pictures. It was pretty hard not talking in the car. He was pretty funny, "I can recognize this driving anywhere!!... Nelson!! Is it you Nelson?!?!" So funny. Marvin had to yell, "HELP ME!" right when we were in front of Tapioca Express. People looked at us. But I'm sure they knew we were playing around because there were a whole bunch of kids in the car. We got out and had to walk Marvin. We had him in a corner while we looked for an open machine. That place is freaking packed full of Asians. Super cheap too!! $6!! Mpk is $9!! Blasphemy!! But yeah, We got into the jungle gym one.

Ivan was taking Marvin to TapEx for boba while Jessica and I decorated the pictures. Suddenly, Lena ran in and told us that Marvin had walked into a wall and that he was bleeding. I was shocked for a moment and didn't know what to do. But then I ran out side. I didn't stop to look. I just ran right into TapEx and grabbed some napkins and wet them and ran back out. The people there probably thought I was crazy... I ran to Marvin and when he saw me, he had this cute blank expression on his face. I just saw the blood and started crying. I don't know why though. I'm comfortable with the sight of blood but I don't know what happened. I just wanted to hit Ivan but he felt bad already. I took Marvin into the restroom at TapEx so he could clean up. Then Tina called, she was pissed. So we headed back to Tina's house.

Tina guided us to the park and when we got there, she ran away. I thought she was angry but later I realized that she was getting ready. Everyone left the car, but I stayed to do some thinking. I watched them throw water ballons and cream Marvin from my rear view mirror. I'm glad he was having fun. I came out when everyone had calmed down and all the water ballons were gone. I gave Marvin his gift and he opened it. He was confused at what it meant, but I guess you're not supposed to understand it. He wanted to give me a hug but he was sticky and I was wearing my BLG jacket... I hugged him anyway.

Everybody just hung out at the park, chillin' and playing football. Tina tried ot get me to play but I didn't want to. I just sat around until maybe 6 PM and it was getting darker. Marvin introduced me to his friends after they played football. They're pretty cool people. They're like, Chinese VS Vietnamese. It's funny how they teach each other how to speak the other language. I met Marvin's best friend, Dang. He smelled like his cat, so he says. But they all smelled really bad. Dang wanted me to stay for the dinner with his family at 9 but I couldn't stay that late.

It got to 7 PM and I decided that I needed to head home before it started to rain and I die on my way home. I didn't know my way and I needed to fill up with gas so Marvin went in the car with me and took me to hte gas station. He filled up my car while I ran into In-N-Out to pee. Then I dropped him off at Barnes and Nobles, where his friends were waiting for him. We both got out of hte car and he gave me one last hug before I left. He's like a freaking bear. I love his hugs. It was a really nice hug. I haven't gotten one of those in the longest time.

I got back to Mpk around 9 PM and went to fill up the car again so my parents wouldn't notice htat I drove 200+ miles. They don't look at the meter thingy. Marvin called to make sure that I got home safely. It was a fun day.